Post edited 4:32 pm – July 15, 2009 by SJlovesMJ
there are so many messages I want to tell to MJ!
I just really wanna let him know how much I Miss, Love, Care and Treasure him..
wanna share u a quote that is now really very important to me..
“Sometimes We Don't Appreciate A Gift Until Its Gone”
Yeah.. I have to admit..
I hadn't appreciated MJ earlier.. and I really regret that..
( I wasn't born during his generation.. and as I remember, I was only 3yrs old when MJ had visted Philippines. like 1996? and I was born in 1993..)
and I want to apologize to MJ.. ( wherever he is )
first thing that had come up in my mind when it was announced that MJ had “passed away” is something like this..
- that news got to be a joke!! I really hope MJ's death is only a joke!! ( I know this joke isn't Funny! ) but its better than seeing him lying inside the casket! Rightttt???
then in the following days, I still can't believe it! The news about MJ's “death” still hadn't hit me.. until they had announced “The Memorial of MJ”.. about that time I think its time for me to accept the fact that he is “gone” and he is now with God.. I had made a Notebook that contains his Biography, his songs, his albums and the messages I made for him ( which is not yet complete! bcoz of this site! This site gives me hope! Tnx!!)..
[ these are the moments when i was to accept that MJ was really "gone" ]
Anyways.. here are some of my messages for him..
- MJ, u might be gone but u'll always stay in my heart. u'll never be forgotten.. u'll have a special place in my heart that no one can ever replace u..
- I hope his critics will let him have peace & privacy in his “other life”..
- MJ ur not dead.. and forever will not die in my heart!
Sometimes I wish when I wake up the nxt day, I'll realize it was all a nightmare, then I will see him on Public Telvision so healthy and alive!! and here's another thing, I really hate it when I cry, but these past few days I always find myself staring blankly and remembering MJ, then suddenly.. there are waters forming in my eyes.. And every night b4 I go to sleep, I always cry like a child! wanting him to come back.. I really miss him..
I don't understand myself why I cried like a child when I found about MJ's death, I cried as if he's someone vey special to me & so close to me.. I cried, Maybe its becoz Mj's The King Of Pop, or maybe the fact that I saw how much he love his fans, or is it bcoz of his talents & skills, or bcoz I admire him for being strong ( in facing challenges & rumors in his life & his career ), or is it bcoz I had seen his children being good persons
( I had read it in some news ), or is it bcoz of him being a good father? or is it I was yearning a father's love ( and some what saw him as a father that I wanted to have not bcoz of his wealth & popularity, but bcoz of how much care and attention he gave to his children.. I haven't have a father ever since.. So maybe I saw a father image in him ). I really don't know whats the reason bhind the tears I shed for him.. But there's One thing I'm sure about, I love MJ and I will surely miss him! He's a treasure to me!
There are also times I wanted to stand up for him! to fight for him to all the critics that wanted to destroy him..
like these..
- Many people say that MJ is odd/ strange, but for me thats really ordinary, each and every people is odd, each of us have different characteristics ( good & bad ) and for that we should respect and accept him ( both his good & bad characteristics )..
- I know we have different opinions about MJ (but most of us here loves him so much), but now he is “gone”, I hope people who don't like him should just Shut their mouth and respect him!!
- Many people said he had undergo skin tratment for him to become white, but MJ said he had Vitiligo ( in which of course I believe he had Vitligo! ).. There were also some issues/rumors ( bad rumors ) about him ( I believe he is Innocent!! ) that had caused people and critics to judge him, but what I want to say is, they don't have any right to judge/criticize a person, any person, especially MJ! Though he had been undergoing so much pain ( physically & emotionally ) he still continues to bring joy & happiness to us through his music & songs.. Now, tell me what right do we have to judge/criticize him??
But since I had found this site, I'm much calmer now and I still hope MJ is alive.. but I'm really confused now! A part of me believes he's dead ( for some reasons ) & now he's with God and I need to let him rest! ( I really wanted him to rest, I tried not to think of him! but I can't ).. and of course a bigger part of me believes that he is still alive.. he's some where out there having the life he had always wanted. But whatever it is, I believe MJ have reasons in every actions he make, and with that, I will always support him! I wish him happiness where ever he is right now!
here's my last message to him..
I wanted u to know there are so many people loving u & supporting u ( so don't think u r alone ).. But most especially..
I wanted u know that there is a Sarah Joan loving u, caring for u, regretting for not appreciating u earlier, missing u and treasuring u for whoever u are.. I will always love u!
SJlovesMJ