Michael Jackson Hoax Death

Post edited 7:28 am – July 24, 2009 by jeanine

Hi  folks, I'm Jeanine and I am from the UK.

I have never been a fan of Michael Jackson, (or MJ as his fans like to call him) and to be honest with you I have not paid any attention to, or done any research into him as a musician or as a person- not ever.

For example, the extent of my knowledge could be compared to someone who asks “Did you see that show on TV last night”, and my reply would be “I have heard of it, but never seen,nor know anything about it” and in this instance it would be the same thing with Michael.

I heard of his “death” within seconds of the press getting a hold of the story- so theoretically as soon as  it became known that an ambulance was outside his house, that is when I heard the news.

I looked at the headlines and I admit, I shrugged it off…. afterall, it was that exact same day that I heard another celebrity had passed on so I didnt pay much attention to it at all…

As the night went on the news of Michael being unwell was stuck in my mind and I became interested and to some extent concerned and I have absolutely no idea why, because as I previously stated, I only knew of him by name and could only name maybe ONE song out of his entire career as a muscian.

The news of his “death” hit a few hrs later and I was like “Oh… hmmmm” and basically left it at that and thought no more about it.

Days went on… and I felt weird- it was an undescribable sort of weird, almost like a sense of “loss” and this was extremely odd to me.

I found it to be such a weird feeling that I simply didnt want to think nor mention it to anyone…

I cant remember how it happened, but within a few days I then stumbled upon all the conspiracy theories and later I found myself watching documentaries…

Since his “death”, its all I can think about. Seriously, I simply cannot get it out of my mind and it's confusing me as to why it has had this sort of affect on me…

For some reason I feel as though I'm meant to be a member of this forum, and I'm supposed to be out there researching more on the possibility that Michael did fake his death to escape the cruel world of the press and pressure…

I don't know what Im expecting to accheive from all of this or what I'm expecting to find- but I feel  I am meant to be doing something and I cant quite understand why.

I knew nothing about Michael Jackson, never seen him on the TV or watched any of his music videos- but here I am now, probably making myself sound like a nut, confessing that I think I am “meant” to be investigating his “death” in some way or another…

I bet I sound absolutely crazy…

Please bare some thing in mind.. Im not in denial, I never was a fan, I knew nothing about him and I'm not crazy…. I find the whole thing utterly bizarre and something somewhere is telling me he definitely is not dead.

Should I be  proven wrong??? well, thats bad luck on my part.

I'm like that aswell….

I never EVER listened to his music, or watched any of his interviews, etc….but when my father told me that Michael Jackson had died, I was heartbroken, and the worst part of it was not knowing why. All day I was fighting tears, and it didn't help that everyone was talking about it!

So, I started listening to his music and instantly fell lin love with it, with him, with everything. I became so obssessed that I would lie in bed listening to his music all day. I told myself that this wasn't healthy and I tried to stay away from MJ – but it was even worse. I feel like I've been sucked into this, like I was meant to be on this forum, too. It's like a drug to me!

I love MJ now, and it's too late for me to leave. I'm already captured by him and I have no idea why.

I have NEVER felt so devoted to someone I don't even know in person…when I found out that he was dead, it was the strangest feeling I have ever experienced….like destiny…

i think u should become a mj fan lol

Hi Jeanine, I don't think you're crazy at all as I too felt the same way

For some reason this has really taken a toll on people. It really is a spiritual thing. I'm not saying that Mj was God but he is definately a blessed soul. He's able to touch so many people, whether he is with us or absent. I really was in shock when I got the news, but then I started feeling uneasy and empty. So here I am on this forum, the same as you. Hopefully we get some good news soon. Good luck to you…and no you're not crazy!

Jeanine, that sounds all just too familiar to me…I never was a fan in any way, although I knew a few songs and I even kind of liked some of them, but all in all, it's just not my kind of music. By chance I saw that frenzy starting when he was rushed into the hospital and nobody knew what was going on, but it didn't affect me much. I was a little sad for him for having to go at such a young age, but that's life…

For me the craziness started with the memorial…I don't even know why I decided to watch it – the next thing I remember is finding myself crying and thinking “This is so wrong…”

Since then, I'm hooked.

I don't know myself anymore.

Cherry said:

Post edited 3:13 pm – July 23, 2009 by Cherry

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Hey Jeanine, thanks for posting this, don't worry, it happened the same to me; well, I liked Michael very much when i was just a child, after that my taste changed, although i have always respected him and do it after his death, maybe more than some others who claim to be fans (its not necessary to be a huge fan to show respect and admiration for someone, i want to make this clear; and i know many people who, without being a fan, respect him and are conscious about his important role in the music's history) so that, the day he died i suddenly felt a weird emptiness (as he was a part of my childness) and a curiosity to get to the botton of this.

I also think that it is good to have people here (like us) who see things from a impartial perspective and always from the respect.

This is an open site in which we all have the right to express our opinions (even if you are a fan or not) and i hope people don't feel unconfortable with us (the no-fans) surfing the web.

I feel the same way. I've actually gotten yelled at here for buying CD's since his death, even thoughI already had some. He was such an icon of the 70's and 80's when I was growing up you do feel like you've lost a part of your childhood.

Becky said:

Cherry said:

Post edited 3:13 pm – July 23, 2009 by Cherry

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Hey Jeanine, thanks for posting this, don't worry, it happened the same to me; well, I liked Michael very much when i was just a child, after that my taste changed, although i have always respected him and do it after his death, maybe more than some others who claim to be fans (its not necessary to be a huge fan to show respect and admiration for someone, i want to make this clear; and i know many people who, without being a fan, respect him and are conscious about his important role in the music's history) so that, the day he died i suddenly felt a weird emptiness (as he was a part of my childness) and a curiosity to get to the botton of this.

I also think that it is good to have people here (like us) who see things from a impartial perspective and always from the respect.

This is an open site in which we all have the right to express our opinions (even if you are a fan or not) and i hope people don't feel unconfortable with us (the no-fans) surfing the web.

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I feel the same way. I've actually gotten yelled at here for buying CD's since his death, even thoughI already had some. He was such an icon of the 70's and 80's when I was growing up you do feel like you've lost a part of your childhood.

Oh sorry, i meant CHILDHOOD, no childness , i'm not english speaker.

Hey Jeanine, I feel similar in a lot of aspects.

I am very sad to say that, I never really listened to his music or watched his videos until after his 'death'. I am half his age so I guess that I was just never exposed to it -I've always liked alternative, rock, and even country music.

I found out that he 'died' while I was off at a work meeting. I didn't think much about it. My co-workers mentioned it to me, and they didn't seem too concerned. A few days later when I got home, I did a google search on Farrah Fawcett, Billy Mays, and him. Out of the three, Billy Mays I was the most saddened by at first.

Then, I watched a music video by Michael and became instantly hooked. His voice, his movements, his personality, everything about him was just so expressionative and conveyed so much emotion. His music is just phenomenal! I watched and read every interview, video, article, photo, etc that I could find on him. I now look at many other artists and don't see that vigor that Michael has.

Somehow from doing all of this research, I started to feel that the pieces weren't fitting together in his ‘death'. I began to wonder if others thought that he could be faking his ‘death' as well.. so eventually I did a google search on it and stumbled upon this site.

I totally understand where you're coming from, and I think a lot of people were in that situation.

I was what you may call a “casual” Michael Jackson fan. I knew more or less about his life and the trials, and the crap reported in the press mostly… and I loved and listened very frequently to all his songs though – I knew more about the music than the man itself. And, I think, everyone's been taking him for granted – Michael Jackson was “there” you know, like an institution – a beautiful old building you passed by everyday without giving it much of a 2nd glance before they start tearing it down. 
I like to think of MJ as a “habitual singer” – he's a habit – and habits are the hardest to let go of, if you know what I mean.

When he died, it was a smack in my face. How in hell could MJ die already ? I remember having this talk a little while ago with my friends (I actually met my two dearest friends over a MJ song haha), and we stated that “Wow, someday, MJ is gonna die.. the whole word's gonna be in mourning.” Boy, were we right. It's like it's stopped spinning for a day – everyone was in grief, even in remote areas.
It's like all the wars, the economic crisis and all those downers stopped making sense for a little while and everyone felt emptiness within, from what I can gather.

Then, of course, I rediscovered all his work – the songs, the music videos, the choreographies and I had a hard look at the man himself. Well, the man we could get a glimpse of in interviews and documentaries anyway. I saw the Bashir documentary which I think is not necessarily a disservice to Michael Jackson (well, if you put aside that awful narration piece on how “disturbing” his relationship with children was – Bashir was such a two-faced ass !) – the loneliness was so… transparent.

I'm glad I found these boards and it's lovely to know that we are not alone – that other people felt the same way as we did. 
Now, let's get to the bottom of this !  

iloveyoumore said:

I think we, as humans, have a very strong, primal sense of intuition.  But we forget we have it.  There are so many distractions in life.  And it just kind of makes that intuition fade.  When the MJ “death” broke, I think that our collective intuition was so strong, that it overrode the distractions.  Does this make sense?  The intution of something being “not right” about the whole thing was so overwhelmingly intense, that even people who had little to do with MJ prior to his death felt it.  That says a great deal.

BEAUTIFUl! Such wise words! Thank you!

I still think that this is the best thread ever! To me it is….. Lovely!

BerlinBabyGermany said:

iloveyoumore said:

I think we, as humans, have a very strong, primal sense of intuition.  But we forget we have it.  There are so many distractions in life.  And it just kind of makes that intuition fade.  When the MJ “death” broke, I think that our collective intuition was so strong, that it overrode the distractions.  Does this make sense?  The intution of something being “not right” about the whole thing was so overwhelmingly intense, that even people who had little to do with MJ prior to his death felt it.  That says a great deal.

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BEAUTIFUl! Such wise words! Thank you!

I still think that this is the best thread ever! To me it is….. Lovely!

Thank you!  I would honestly venture the say that as many fans as MJ had prior to his death — that the majority of fans since his death have a story similar to Jeanine's.  I think there are many, many more people that aren't as brave as Jeanine and won't admit this, because they feel that it somehow makes hem lose credibility as a fan.  They feel that they are so well-versed and immersed and enveloped at this point by his music and his lovely humanitarian self — that it just doesn't seem fair to classify them as any less of a fan.  And it probably makes them feel guilty on some level for only now experiencing such an awakening, when they could have realized and appreciated him for what he was when he was “around”.  Trust me.  I totally understand.  He is…magical.

well, great, better late than never to be a fan you're hardly the only one to feel this way, btw

iloveyoumore said:

I think we, as humans, have a very strong, primal sense of intuition.  But we forget we have it.  There are so many distractions in life.  And it just kind of makes that intuition fade.  When the MJ “death” broke, I think that our collective intuition was so strong, that it overrode the distractions.  Does this make sense?  The intution of something being “not right” about the whole thing was so overwhelmingly intense, that even people who had little to do with MJ prior to his death felt it.  That says a great deal.

Very well said! I couldnt agree more.

It was the same with me. Michael was always 'there' when I grew up and thats why I never really noticed him. I had always listened to his songs and I loved his music. It helped me a lot through bad times. But I never considered myself a fan. I was just not interested enough in him and his life because the media circus was all around in my teenie years and I never really saw anything else than that about him. It was not until his death that I realised I had missed out on someone. Someone very special. And someone that in some way saw the world like I do. Since then I went through the proccess of believing his death to a 100% to now where I believe he is alive to 98%. Its really weird to know that the death of a person you have never known can affect you in such a strong way. But its nice to know as well!

Wow, I should have opened this thread a long time ago. Ditto ditto ditto, agreed all around.

I grew up with Michael Jackson. Thriller was my first big kid music and Michael was my first crush. I fell head over heels in love with him from age 8 through grade school, but eventually moved on in my musical tastes. He always had a special place in my heart and I never believed the allegations against him. To me, even as a no-longer musical fan, Michael was always a source of goodness and innocense.

When the reports came in that he had died I felt an instant sense of loss and sadness, as I believed he deserved better then to die in shame and drug abuse allegations, couldn't this wonderful soul catch a break?

In the coming days I became unexplainably distraught, as if my childhood died and was being publically dishonored before my eyes. I cried for the injustice done to Michael. I found myself going to his childhood home in Gary, Indiana and weaping at the makeshift memorial there.

I thought that would give me some sense of closure, I did become at peace as I saw the outpouring of love and support in the form of cards and signs and gifts at the house.

Once the despair had left, curiousity started to take over, and as I started to look at all the “weirdness” surrounding the “facts” in the case (primarily the “drug use”), it occured to me that maybe he had pulled an Elvis. Internet research into the subject brought me here.

I'm thrilled to see I am not alone!!

Thanks for the thread.